Cracka What????

The only way I can really describe how I've been feeling lately is strange!

A lot has taken place, I moved, Karen (my roommate and close friend) moved to WA, I got a promotion at work, Tamara (another close friend) is leaving at the end of the week for GA...

I'm not sure if it's just hormonal imbalance or if there is something terribly wrong with me, but I have this empty sort of feeling...like I don't know who I am again or where I'm going exactly, it's like I was sailing on this ocean liner and then a severe storm came and rocked the whole ship apart and now I'm trying to make it through the storm with just a raft.

I was feeling so ready to begin a new chapter and I started off with such gusto and anticipation of the great things that are to come...So why do I still find myself longing for what was and I know that it's futile, particularly now that the possibility of re-gaining what was is completely lost, yet those memories are still so fresh, I don't ever remember feeling this much anguish for this long over other lost things...I want to be done with it because I want to be ready again and right now I am not ready which sucks! I can't believe its May already, maybe when I'm finally done with school this week I'll feel better, we'll see!

I think maybe me and Jesus need some one on one time, maybe I'm missing Him and not all these haunting memories!

P.S. I cut off all my hair...pictures to come soon!

PS.S. The title of this post was taken from the comedy styings of Mr. Mike Birbiglia, if you've never heard of him, I strongly reccomend you do something about that immediately!